The Mask

 

Have you ever had that time in your life when you thought that everything was hopeless? Have you ever thought that no matter what you did it wouldn’t make the tiniest bit of difference in the way your world looked? Have you ever thought back on your life and wondered where you went wrong? Have you ever tried to reason out what steps took you to the place you are at in your life right now?

i think a lot of us go through life on autopilot. Or maybe even really doing okay. Getting through life one step at a time and working through life’s many twists and turns.

And then suddenly, something happens. Could be massive or tiny, but something happens and makes us realize that maybe we aren’t as good off as we thought we were. Or that we have been fooling ourselves into thinking we are okay, when in reality the life we live from day to day is only a mask for the despair and hopelessness we feel deep inside.

Because under the surface of our happy, charming selves is a scared lil person who is hanging onto our sanity by a slowly fraying rope. We try to give off the persona that we are just fine. Nothing bothers us and everything is right in the world. When in reality we are a jumbled, tangled up mess.

Having made the wrong choices somewhere along the way. Having taken a right turn when we should have made a left turn along our path of life. Hoping that one day we are going to be able to see the light of day again. Hoping that for once the powers that be will actually shine a light on us and give us some happy times or a touch of luck.

Until then, we will keep our smiles in place. Forgive us if the masks slip from time to time. If our friendly exterior falters and we close in on ourselves. It’s not anything that you as our friends have done. It’s not anything that we intend to happen. Just sometimes it gets to be too much and we are not superhuman and have to fight our way back to that calm facade. Have patience and understanding. That’s all we ask.