Wednesday, September 22, 2010

For The Ones Who Matter Most

 

   Across the Miles si2662d

Sometimes in our lives we come across people that blindside us with the impact they have on the people we are deep down inside. They can seem to breach every wall we have ever created to keep ourselves safe. They are capable of wrapping us up in their arms even from hundreds of miles away. They give us all the love and devotion that we’ve always longed for. Even across those miles they seem to be able to make us feel so incredibly amazing simply by being there, by including us in their lives and truly seeming to enjoy spending time with us.

   i have been blessed to come across a few different types of these people throughout my life. Lately i’ve come across 2 in particular. Luckily these people have opened their hearts and their lives to me and have decided that i am worth the time and energy it takes to breach those nearly insurmountable walls that surround my being in order to keep me safe through the years.

   i refuse to expose those people here. It’s not the place nor is it anyone’s business just how much they’ve come to mean to me. However, i feel the need to express the way they make me feel.

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   To feel such highs and lows. To know such excitement and despair. To smile when i see them. Simply smile. Purely happy to have the opportunity to be in their presence again for however long the time is allowed. To know that i can go to them and know that they will take me into their arms, or offer me a shoulder to cry on, a wall to rage at, a friend to laugh with. Incessant laughing. Excitement untold.

   i swear to you that these people are some of the most phenomenal beings that God ever saw fit to create. i feel well and truly blessed to have come into contact with them and to have had the opportunity to share my life with them. Because you see, they make me better. The me inside. They make me happier and give me a measure of peace the likes of which i have not had in a great while. The road has been a bumpy one in our friendship. And i doubt that it will be smooth sailing from here on out. After all, a course that is too smooth is generally a boring existence for sure. *winks*

   So to these lovely people…you mean the world to me and i am grateful for every moment i get to spend with you. You’ve made my life a happier place simply by being you. Quite simply, thank you. From the bottom of my heart. There is a special place inside of me with your names on them. And i will always and forever adore you.

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Thursday, September 16, 2010

Straight From The Heart

 

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A lot of things have been happening lately, a lot of big issues have come and gone and come again and there has been a lot of distress in my lil family of friends online. i hope with everything inside of me that all of the problems can be resolved and that everyone can come back together at one point and we can get back to being ourselves with one another and showing each other how much we mean to one another.

   Since all of these things have happened recently, there is a song that has been floating through my head continuously. So i figured i would share the words here with those that matter most.

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   “Someday, when you look back on all the times we’ve shared, I hope you discover how much I really do care.

   And with a smile, we’ll see through all this pain. The word goodbye is so hard to say.

   But remember if you need me I’ll be here for you always.

   Just take my hand before we must part. Let’s sing this song, straight from the heart.

   We’ll find the strength to help us be strong. Just remember all our love. Straight from the heart.”

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   Just a snippet from the song. It was a song i sang my Senior year of high school so it is not super fresh in my mind. *chuckles* But those words were always important to me and so therefore i remembered them all these years later.

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   i adore you, my sweet, dysfunctional friends. Yyou’ve become family that i could choose for my own. i hope that whatever happens and whatever the outcome Yyou remember the words of the song and that Yyou understand that i mean them from the bottom of my heart.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Where Were You…

 

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   That time of year is coming up again i’m afraid. That fateful September day that most of the world will never forget, myself included. i’ve decided to recount that day here. Writing it down for posterities sake i suppose and to just give all a glimpse of what my life was like during that tragic time in history.

   i remember being at my friend Kathy’s house the night before. i often stayed the night with her and just hung out and what not to be brought home the next day. i stayed up all night that night and ended up being taken home by her husband on his way to work the next morning. 

   i walked into the house and my Mother was awake at like 9 am. Something that NEVER happens. So i paused in the bedroom door and she was on the phone. Confused i sort of gave her a look like “What are you doing?” and she pointed to the tv with a look of horror on her face. i turned and looked over my shoulder behind me just as the second tower was hit by the plane.

   With wide eyes i watched for a time, complete baffled by what i had seen. i had no clue what was going on and soon went into the living room and turned on the tv there. Still having had no sleep i watched for a bit. Completely aghast at the situation. The apparent tragedy that had befallen our nation. Those poor people in the towers and their families. So very many families broken and forever changed because of this act.

   i remember calling my friend Ronnetta cause i knew she’d be awake and at work that early in the morning and talking to her for a bit. i remember saying it was like Independence Day (the movie) without the aliens. Just so out there and outrageous that it was baffling.

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   After a time exhaustion got the better of me. my Mother had left to go do something at the church and my father was still working as a custodian for a local elementary school then. So i crashed out on the couch. Until the phone rang…

   It was 1:16 pm in the afternoon when i answered the call from my Aunt Cathie. She was rather upset and immediately i went on high alert. She proceeded to tearfully explain to me that my Grandma Ruby had passed away an hour or so before and would i please inform my parents.

   i was shocked. Not in the way you might think because my Grandma was ill with pancreatic cancer and her liver was shutting down. Just shell-shocked i suppose. A bit numb. So i called my Mom and got ahold of her having to tell her that her Mother had passed away. i was still calm and held it together beautifully. She had to get off the phone and call others and my cousin Jenny had been at the church to tell her as well because Jenny worked in the town where the church was and was close by.

   It was not until i called my Father. For some reason as i told him what happened i simply broke down. Maybe it is because as much as we argued when i hit teenage years i was always Daddy’s Little Girl and just hearing him in that dreadful moment broke the seal on my emotions.

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   i then remember having to call my sister (who was an absolute basketcase and has never been all that stable emotionally) and then had to walk up the street and tell my brother because he had no phone.

   Most of the time after that is disjointed. i remember watching some of the news specials about the Towers and what not. i remember going to Subway with my parents for dinner on the way to my Aunt and Uncle’s house. i remember coming home and just sort of getting through the evening. i remember being outside on my front porch and my ex-sister-in-law coming over to offer her condolences.

   i remember my cousin Jenny coming by that night. And i remember leaving with her. i remember going and riding down back roads and just sort of letting it all sink in. Doing what we always did on back roads. *chuckles* We smoked a bowl. (weed for those of you who might not know) and i remember there being a car behind us a one point. i had my hand out the window with the bowl in it because it was really hot and there was a car behind us for a long time. we came up to a stop sign and there was a lil off rampy thing to the right that the car behind us took, and it ended up being a State Patrol car. LOL

   i tell you this last lil bit because my cousin Jenny said “That was Grandma Ruby watchin out for us.” *chuckles* Oh the memories.

   At any rate, as awful as i know September 11th was for the nation, and as much as i grieve for those people and those families. September 11th for me was overshadowed by the loss of a woman who always had fried bacon on her kitchen table whatever the time of day. Who gave us little baggies with candy and 5 dollars in it every Halloween. By the passing of a woman who was surly and rotten sometimes for no real reason, but loving and giving and loads of fun with her beehive hairdo and her big brownish gold Buick (which she drove with no license her whole life). For me it was combined with the passing of a woman who hosted Christmas every year on Christmas eve and had so many presents 5 ft deep around the tree for the family she adored. A woman i loved more than i can ever tell you. i love you Grandma Ruby and i wish with all that i have inside of me that you could have been here to see my babies and how beautiful they are. Hope you’re having a grand time in heaven. XOXO

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   So i ask you to stop and think…where were you when the world stopped turning that September day? Remember your loved ones. Cherish them. And never let them leave your sight without letting them know that you love them.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Texts From Last Night

 

i have come across this website a few times and it is always wildly entertaining. i shared it with some of Yyou the other night and it got such a good response i promised one of my readers that i would post a special blog dedicated to some of the better texts that appear on this site. So here goes…*grins* i hope Yyou enjoy!

 

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Selections from The Best Nights Ever…

his dick got so hard in his pants and it broke his zipper

you kept singing the copa cabana and saying HAVE A BANANA to random people on the street. you also went up to this poor short guy and hugged him while proceeding to yell I LOVE YOU CHILD MAN into his face. please tell me you're sober now

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Sorry for talking about super scientific shit so much last night, I know it bugs you sometimes when I don't shut up.

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What? You sat on the couch for a solid 2 hours staring at your fingerprints and the only word that came out of your mouth was "how"”

It was at that point the crowd that gathered realized i wasn't getting arrested, and passed the sobriety tests. I got a standing ovation from 25 strangers

I'm home with mono, wearing knee high socks, shorts, a stained old shirt, and a surgical mask. He comes over ANYWAY with soup, a gas mask, billions of DVDs, and eats me out. He's either stupid, whipped, or i'm just THAT good.

A lesson I learned in the hospital....when you masturbate while attached to a heart monitor, it scares the nurses a lot.

Our professor just said "No class today, go get stoned." A guy seriously walked over and hugged him.

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hows the party?

(816):

ists fjcssing insceredle

(913):

be there in 10

Just got roadhead while going 95. I came for a mile and a half.

(For Sciicure and Mahalalel) “How can people commit suicide when things like bagels exist

She said "Lay the fuck down and ill show you how its done. Ill get us both off." I did. And she did. Best words ever said before sex.

While I was banging her, her cell rang. She checked to see who it was, answered it, and moaned, "I'm dumping you."

I just fucked 3 marines at the same time...how did you celebrate veterans day?

Literally just as i started to cum the church bells next ot my house began to ring. either it was the most epic timing ever or god was watching and congratulating me

(850):

hey. who tried to drive me home last night?

(904):

not sure. we got lost. what do you mean "tried"?

(850):

i'm still in their car. parked on the beach. no one else is here. i have on different pants.

(For my lovely Dominant Friends) “She eyed me up from across the bar and mouthed "I have no gag reflex".

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You dropped me off at the wrong girl's house.

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There's no such thing as a "wrong girl" make it happen.

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alright see you in the morning.

I pulled out and her Nuva ring was around my dick... It was like I won a carnival game for adults... I asked her where my big stuffed bear was

having sex with him was like banging macgyver. he did the most amazing shit with the simplest things

The douche that always wears spandex at the gym just walked into class with a dick going into his mouth drawn on his face. The professor said "rough night" and he still has no idea. Tyring to get a pic

(205):

Why are my keys in the refrigerator?

(1-205):

You said "This is gonna really confuse me tomorrow." Apparently drunk you plays pranks on hungover you.

(205):

This explains so much.

So I made him an imaginary sandwich and told him that the day I didn't have to fake it, neither would he.

Instead of just putting in it he asked "will you do the honors?" it was the cutest thing I had ever heard before sex.

(404):

I just left the house and 2 chicks are in the kitchen making breakfast. Might want to get up.

(812):

I'm up, no shirt, and staring at a breakfast casserole. Who are these girls?

 

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i think i am going to stop here for now. *chuckles* There will be another installment sometime in the near future. *grins* Hope Yyou found them as amusing as i did. Man these ppl have interesting lives. LOL